Louisville/ Poem by Gerald Blanchard

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We are lost cruising. Moving, some of us dancing.
Abusing ourselves for our sins, no set laws.
No keepsakes. Heartaches. I’m glad I met you.
With that big ol’ grin.

(pause)

This is nice. Us. We don’t know how these streets cross.
You never know, but we know, when we said goodbye,
that this would be the last time. Not now, however.
We’d spend another hour talking endlessly about distant planets.

(pause)

Taught me how to say Lousville. Oval.
You could be saying anything and I’d just stare.
Huge teeth. Chomp on your gums. I’m just trying to have fun.
We always said we don’t know how the streets fold.

(pause)

I met you when you said they’re gone before I can get to them.
People too discrete. Can’t feel heartbeats. Harsh tones.
There was this one guy, one night. He was off and on.
He showed me sunlight, orange. The beauty of the bright.

(pause)

When he was gone, that voice. It was like nothing could be right.
Saw those lips with that twangy style. Closed my eyes.
Wanted to REALLY feel your nervous skin against mine.
While looking at that open world.

(pause)

Gosh danm you had the sweetest laugh.
You meant right with every word. Compliments.
You told me you got no one around. That you were looking.
Told me the skies can be watched together again after years of gone.

(pause)

You told me that my eyes looked sad. I told you I was just stoned.
Too nervous to show more. Sunglasses fell off.
Ate an ice cream cone in your truck.
Kissed my neck to the point where I lost all control.

(pause)

Connectivity loss. We were across circumstances.
Too long we stared across valleys. Soon I would move on.
You would remain, we told each other though. You never know.
Before I lose you. Just know, this was something.

LONESOME / Poem by Gerald Blanchard

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LONESOME
GERALD BLANCHARD

I lost my mind deep in silence. With

Others. Bend your soul. Did you mean

those kindly chosen words and yet…

Did you ever think of me beyond your walls?

(sighs)

Now, trapped in the kingdom. Ardor Dominion.

Our years went by. Lost in illusion. Spasm

moments. Heal wounds, break plot lines.

(wistful)

Nicknames, late nights. Spending time with

your sounds. Forgotten dreams, sweatpants.

Was I ever your man?

(looks away)

Said my name in a way I liked. Cute.

Was it our last night? Burned my spine,

created hesitancy, windshields.

That horizon.

(pause)

Remote landscapes, hair in a gust. Tugged

at my shades, it was night. Keep the bad

dreams away, you say. Taste of vanilla on

those lips, called me your baby boy.

(smiles)

Inferior, under your muscle,

I imagined you as an outline, really,

That had holes to fill.

(concerned)

What you told me last night.

Was it real? A sound, a whisper.

Of us fighting for those nights

Where we felt like different people.

Thursday / Poem by Gerald Blanchard

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THURSDAY

I introduce myself thursday
Notes, hot carelessly whistling notes
Light burning him
Advantages, history all in notes

Pockets, seconds, careless air
Answers speak with lips
Minutes, he fell
Mind Savage

Storm hissing stones below
Common legs, boy troubles
Corduroys, rest, tonight
Cried, I must talk to you

Blessing, but you must go with me
Light and air
Rush of old memories
Suffering, touched him deeply

Hand boy, hand, hand
Voice, hand, hand, skin
I’m master, slowly looking at him
With eyes of illness

Fear, morning, night
Well, he’s got me now, if he only knew
Night, hand, sleepy mind
Quiet, he woke at last with a shiver

Stretched, figures on his face
Down, night, night again
Saving his arms, his chest
Circulation, the crescent moon dances

He could make out the stars,
Facing out, glow
Forgetting for a moment
Long mornings

He had the power, leave this place
your way, Years, years, thats long enough
You’ll depend on flesh here, pleasant pursuits
Hold him in the right way

Intense.

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Intense

Intense.

It’s a beautiful night. But I don’t feel beautiful

Obsessed with others.

Sang my favorite song

So you’d get the mood

Addicted to your web browsers.

What is the mystery in your eyes.

Am I remember myself

When I didn’t get it.

Desert sun.

The air was static.

Spent a weekend together.

Went through years and days it felt

Never felt that before.

Kissed hard in the airport.

You wanted me.

I had a dream your face melted.

Night after night.

You were the only one.

I could be anything of your nightmares.

Woke up like you were there.

Scared of your missing pull

Nicknames, Late nights

Spending time

Isolated

Sweatpants.

Missing someone who said my name once twice maybe more

Were you sad

You left for years and missed all my calls

Returned your clothes

Your eyes

I view the distance as this tower

Want to reach it hold the power

Buy all these clothes just to take them off

What is the history in your eyes

Moment is over

Should have held it longer

Wanted your body

Could have been anybody

I want to tear you apart

I want to tear you apart

I want to tear you apart

I want to tear you apart

Its a beautiful night but I don’t feel beautiful

Spent all time with illusion

I lie, laying near you

Soft sounds of harmonic backgrounds

Distance

Pulling

Melting

We have this thing

Souls pulled together

Much like the last time

Matching initials

Scents, lurring eachother

Glances

No one knows, like it like that

Turn my head at the first

At the first moment

In a photograph I am only but perfect

Drowning in lies I am the king of them

Used your story before

Different names, outfits and horrors.

Sometimes Im glad Im not me anymore.