Hair escaping from the side.
White brief, dark patches.
Everyone feels like, soft fabric under my
palms. Round, firm, tight, patches of static.
(PAUSE)
Love that feel, tug of pulling the waistband.
Engage me in fantasy. Of our bodies, tangled.
Behind you, I examine, your landscape.
Body cages.
Breathing hard, slight motion, your backside,
shaking, tightens, holding.
Tighter, now. I crave that weekend getaway
I’ll be back for your body, and soul.
How could we ever leave, that beauty.
Of that feeling in your stomach.
(PAUSE)
Used you all the time,
but with different bodies. You always stayed
there. I was leaving long ago, anyway,
Wrote this story knowing,
I was comfort in your hands.
(pause)
I’ve thought of you all week. No lies.
Of us all week. Falling asleep in your grasps.
Tender touches and offers.
Saw your room was darkness, wondered where you
roamed. Drove us crazy with teasing. Wanted
to see that tattoo hidden.
Imagine your taste. Imagine escaping.
Together, away, for the time being.
Your black shirt, tight muscles and short hair.
The way you look, look at me.
Say my name like it is your favorite word.
Sacred to admit, I like you mean.
(pause)
But all we have are, Interactions, smile and nods.
Imagine the night, where we can get lost.
Lost in arms, folded. With all issues gone, that time
between us, with trust.
(pause)
I was soaked from the rain, you
warm and inviting. Strong back, confirmation,
that you were into. Years apart. Destinies drifting.
Into us, laughing.
2 AM. In the morning, felt a certain way.
But we still thought of others as we slept. Warned.
This moment. Only last for now.
Saw your weary look.
(pause)
Rips my stomach apart. Eased breathe.
Never to see you again, but only for a brief glimpse.
Of what could have been.
Had a vivid dream. It’s ok to want me, it’s ok to say
hello. Just to see me.
(pause)
Your strong body, my small frame. I jumped up often,
you held yourself down. Got a roaring laugh, love
that black hoodie.
(pause)
Often I hope you will be looking, you always seem to be
Could be tricks or magic, but that’s what I want. Got something
on your mind other than work. Am I a bad person?
For wanting distance, a mountain between us.
(pause)
Even if it’s not soft, relax. Need to feel that other hand.
Baby, I know you want to hide. You are so beautiful.
(deep sigh)
Moment was over, should have held it longer, wanted your body
could have been anybody. Had a thick accent, saw your browsing
history. I was missing. I was missing.